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3:27 PM
Sunday, March 30, 2008
again.
this is the second time this week that i can't make out what i'm feeling.
on thursday i didn't know if i was sad or angry or hopeful or disheartened
on friday i felt more calm and i felt a lot of warmth from wat everyone said.
yest, when i knew of the truth my feelings got 乱 again.
and today, i dunno why, i can't stop thinking about it.
[must be the midnight talk with ameliang T-T]
i tried not to get affected.
but that is really quite hard i admit.
曾经心里拥有那么多希望
曾经真的很天真, 以为什么都ok.
所以事情变成这样
我要怎么办,
我能做什么,
为什么没人告诉我 .
我最讨厌坐一旁看著我在意的人伤心
但却无能为力
感觉好懦弱, 感觉好无奈, 感觉好堕落
i don't like to feel insecure
i don't like to not understand anything.
now i feel so mixedup that 我真的怕了.
我要努力为大家争取
我想开心地走完条崎岖的路
我相信只要我们拼了,
没什么 不可能的 .
is this a challenge?
人说失去过才懂得珍惜
我们却从未处在失去的悬崖边.
i believed that if team 2 had that chance to pitch again
they would do very well.
i am not losing hope, i am keeping faith
'coz 我要勇敢追奔向到终点
痛过的泪水换来是甜美
we're on our final lap
how many times have we ran these laps?
in our trainings, in our minds?
we've managed to come so far.
we have this chance to finish this lap.
i always felt more secure with team 2 by our side.
but maybe it is really time we learn to fly on our own
at least we still have one another. ;D
TEAM ONE 不可以放弃
不可以漏油![erh since 加油 is too mechanical, let's use this phrase to replace it!]
LAST LAP! SPRINT TOGETHER, FINISH THIS TOGETHER!
it is now up to us if it is going to be a fullstop or exclamation mark.
rmb our cheer?
"NYCT 活出自己
一起努力不放弃
不怕下雨不怕muddy
永远永远我爱CT! :DD "
no cheer is created for nothing (:
"过去一个人 偶尔叹息
也曾想过要放弃
如今 不为自己 也要为了你
笑着让梦延续
因为我相信 只要我相信
就会有奇迹 "
让我们一起相信 !
拼了!
oh btw, okay i might be weird
BUT I DON'T WANT FINALS TO BE PUSHED BACK.
THIS WEEK.
i want to feel the intensity of a training filled with passion and direction
i want to see how we will be if we work together and hard within this limit
i want to be able to look back at this week and feel proud of ourselves.
to speak the truth
i wasn't this emo before in my life
i dunno, but i like the feeling of 牵挂 for ct.
like when it rains, ppl go"woo shiok" you go "argh later training how"
like when you feel high, ppl go "I FEEL HIGH!" you go, "i feel like pitching now! :D"
like when you listen to a song and you start relating the lyrics to ct.
just for that, i feel the courage to strive on. :D
i still have my teammates working with me (:
and we still have team 2's support to fall back on.
THIS WEEK WILL BE THE MOST MEMORABLE WEEK OF MY LIFE ;D
kaye byeee.
[need to go do campfire propsal stuff]
chu! :D
[p.s. meliang, 振作 orh.别怕 :D ;tung yi, 可以的! 拼了!; pinky, yes, EVERYTHING WILL BE OKAY! ]
ahah nothing much o.o
10:27 PM
Wednesday, March 26, 2008
REALLY? yes. nothing much (:
really like the squad serious talks/meetings nowadays.
i like listening to sqms debate about things vigourously
i like sqms really talking about the things they FEEL :D
i like the whole mood and atmosphere like everybody is involved and everybody matters and everybody cares a lot! (:
and when the talking gets 激烈
I FEEL EXCITED. hahaha.
i think tues de campcraft test is quite got 拼劲. quite. :DD
better than before the talks (:
but got quite some 遗憾
actually mc is quite right. no more bests.
遗憾 doesn't mean i din do my best/i did my best
遗憾 only means i have regrets and i could have done better.
hmph. nice word :D
changed sitting position. hhah
at first we drew lots. o.o I GOT THE FRONT SEAT
RIGHT SMACK IN FRONT IN THE MIDDLE!
ahahah. i din really mind, but hmmmph the ppl behind surely do lorh
and it was the second time i got with SHI MUN (:
[we very fated lorh]
so we swapped again then i swapped behind so now i'm with gohyingxiang! :D
VERY HAPPY CAN! :D
then now shimun sitting with zhi-yi :D
i think they're happy sitting with each other, but they dun like sitting in front D;
maybe we can swap once in a while! (:
LOVELOVE! :DD
so i get to sit with gohyingxiang! :D
the crazy/gay daddddy.
hahahahha. AT MY ORIGINAL SEAT! xD
ohyesh. today we had chem lab. haha. then was warming this ammonia dunno wat
then it was a bit bubbling, [ah!]
then we had to test for ammonia gas using damp red litmus paper
but we forgot to prepare
so the ammonia dunno wat was BUBBLING!
then i panicked. and yingxiang took the litmus paper
then i went 'DAMP IT ! DAMP IT! DAMP IT! QUICK!'
then mr ng look over at me with the 'what on earth is happening look'
then i realised afterwards that he was thinking that i was shouting 'DAMN IT DAMN IT DAMN IT' o.o
ohh yes another special thing!
MY CHANCE IN A LIFETIME!
i can be flagbearer! HAHAHAHA
so exciting! (:
i thought i would nvr get to be lorhh. D:
haha. i wonder end up is who be right marker eh! xD
then me and pooh invented a middle marker :D lol. quite ugly la but entertaining
ahhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh! xD how unexpected.heheh.
but giving up the 1st chance to be part of the GOH. grahh.
but will get another chance de lah, acc. to sqms [pop.hah]
CAN'T WAIT! TOO EXCITED LIAO. hahahaha.
hmmph. oh yesh. i passed maths and chinese! hahah
so surprising.
but so careless. D:
it is really sad how wahbiang i lost so many marks for NOTHING. grrr
but nvm, OVER. nxt time cannot like tat le!
went sac with sqms :D today
before tat did chem ws. until we all went crazy [incl. POOH! :D]
go sac even more crazy .lol
must ask that gohyingsiu to STOP reminding me of the fact that i sat on bird shit.
NOT FUNNY !
then she keeps thinking of it once in a while and then laughing at me. T-T
boo. *smacks*
*yingsiu goes mehh*
okay. that's abt it ;D
today is a nice day
tmr doing round lash + double clove hitch AHH
must chiong arh! (:
JIAYOU FOR CT TRAINING TMR TOO! :D [i very loook forward to it, dunno why! :D]
i'm from nynp CAMPCRAFT TEAM ONE :D
9:59 PM
Monday, March 24, 2008
YEEHARR :D
wahh. all these days of waiting and training (:
{PRELIMS ARE OVERRRR }
rawhr.
[i like my blog title :D]
dunno. but i know i'm glad that it is over.
yet i don't really mind it if it hadn't been over.. it is weird with no ct trainings.
erm. someone bish me i dunno what i'm saying.
aiyarh. nvm
but i know i'll remember that morning for life ;D
WHEE! (:
it was really nice giving presents to ma'ams/41 :D
very nice to receive messages and presents from ma'ams /41 as well :DD
很窝心. (:
actually i must admit larh,
i cannot remember much about what happened during the pitch.
everything happened too fast!
i can rmb worrying about the pegs [that they were too round, then cannot keep the poles in place]
but they turned out extremely fast! :DD hoho.
i also admit that the prelims pitch was not the best pitch we've done.
but yes, the conditions are really different. [hey, there's so much grass on the ground eh!]
i know what to improve on :D
i know that i didn't think of anything else during the 12min :D
i know i put my heart into it :D
and i feel good about that (:
PRESENTS :D
{starting frm top left corner}
&& A LOT OF HAPPY MOMENTS :D AND THINGS TO RMB FOR LIFE :D
aww. :D what a brilliant saturday (:.
lala. tmr last block test(:. I.H. o.O
ALL THE BEST
tmr campcraft test specialisation o.o
what can we do?
只可以.....拼 了!
must not give up on ourselves!
llala. i would need loads of luck tmr!
WOAHAH
6:51 PM
Friday, March 21, 2008
4 down! :D 3 to go
HAHAHA :D
chinese is okay.
BUT wahpiang wahseh i din really finish
got one 'i agree' question i wrote 'i agree' only. o.o
LUCKY is the 2m one. *hengs
BUT my summary is a bit o.o
i very scared the paragraph thing is wrong. haix
bio was..... *sigh
erhh i totallly totally studied SUPER hard for the nutrients erhh D:
ESP. the carbohydrates, fats and protein uses!
arh. nvr come out.
and tested is the microscopes. D:
kuakua.. ._.
dunno but hopes the rest of the paper is NOT flunked. *prays hard*
maths was lol.
i HAD time to finish.
BUT i had NO time to relook into 2 questions [parts of questions] which i dunno. hahaha
hope i don't fail D:
lalalala
chem. was ahah.
okayy~~~ but i found out a careless mistake
but i DON'T THINK it is very flunked. haha
got one funny thing!
the test topics was totally WRONG
hahah xD
'rodex, mole structure.. dunno wat dunno wat. '
HAHHA. then our inviligator[sp?] was like "you mean your tchr didn't tell you that these topics were tested?"
o.o
OF COURSE NOT! :D we din even learn them hahahaha [hengs]
training WAS FUNNNN! :D
[even minus the imaginary pitch!]
the timings and quality were all WOOHAHAHA :D
basha straight ~90% of the time? :3
{but a bit of twine problem. heheh}
BUT i broke a peg. D:
i felt very the sad.
cause in my entire ct life up till now i broke a lot of stuff D:
i broke like 2 dowel poles... and this peg. o.o
THE IMAGINARY PITCH WAS SO FUN :D
really very lol
wenxian cut twine like less than 10s
then she finished her gadget thing before our basha was up. O.O
jieqi ma'am and pinky finished their quadrapod at like 38s?
then ma'am shouted "38s!"
peiting was laughing then she went "hahah~~~ 38s....."
then i couldn't help it.o.o laughed a lot also. HAHEH
then tung yi told her where the mallet was.
SHE RAN THRU the [imaginary] BASHA! ahhahaha.
then ma'am and ameliang ALSO ALL RAN THRU'. AHAHAHA
then 41s were like "see. our basha is so nice!"
haix.
LALAL :D
tmr is the actual prelims le! :D
okay larh. feel very NUMB
not say VERY scared.
cause i kept feeling scared and the prelims keep postponing
haha. [so if i stop being scared, then stop postponing! :D]
I WISH FOR ALL THE BEST :D
-twine okay
-flag can raise
-basha straight
-PEGS ARE OKAY
-squarelash+diagonal all neat :D
-FAST :D
-GD quality (:
EVERYTHING WILL BE OKAY! :D
jiayou arhh nyct! xDD
obs
4:48 PM
Monday, March 10, 2008
oh my 天.. came back from obs for the 3rd day. (:
today is a monday! lalala. trying to mug maths. wahseh
i tell you yours truly is really stupid. you see that ws got how many questions..
like i dunno how to do about half o.o
if i fail maths i shall just bang my head against the wall and hope to get more clever that way.
lala. but maths is not just all leh! D:
i am like going to die for I.H, physics... ermm bio, ermm. wait. everything?
okay larh not really everything but yea, I.H, phy, maths [()%*)(@*)!(] and. bio.
need to mug really hard larh
my feet is in an extreme grotesque state. D:
lalalal. but great improvement have been seen since obs days 4 and 5 lalal.
the cuts look smaller and then the number gauze on my feet is decreasing [cause they all dropped off. hurrah]
however the mosquito bites are all looking grosser [thanks to yours truly's great nails]
my feet is still peeling larh. okay not to bad
and i discovered a WHOLE red patch on my right feet. hoho
tay jia, urs how?
aiyarh feet aside,
i still love obs (:
MORE OF THE PEOPLE! :D
arhhh LOADS OF LOVE.
tyvm mama![loveeee],
shaoting[thanks for the gauze && tapeee :D] ,
prisci keng [hahaha cute !],
krystal [all the highing fun! :D] ,
priscilla la [very cute and works HARD],
yiying [hahaha(: longgg haiirr] ,
yeujia[ohh hoho kampong uncle],
mabellim [ZHANG MENG! && maybe it's mabellim] ,
cynthia [barney.]
shi mun ["arh did you see my lip balm?"]
mindy [ahah pouring water from kayak using SHOE!],
qiaohui [tentmate!] ,
jeraldine [felloww navigator!]
ooh yes
elton! [lol. 'handsome' *pukes*]
AIYARH. ARMSTRONG is too nice to be forgotten :D
heheh.
must thank mama for always accompanying me and listen to crap and discussing personal matters and 'ahem' and kayaking with me! HAHAH [rmb the 360degree turn and the capsizing!?]
must thank mabellim and cynthia for accepting the love triangle with zhang meng lols.
must thank the above and the rest of the fan club members [WAHAHA you all make stuff fun]
must thank shaoting and prisci keng for the gauze and tape! (:
must thank krystal KOHHH for the fun poncho washing session .. HIGHHING LIKE MAD
must thank yeujia for random spastic-ness and fellow sea ex. leader!
must thank yiying, dunno why but i really think she's niceee (:
must thank elton, for making stuff fun larh (: yes. and nice tea on dunno which night and the ruffling of our hair on the last day. [nice way to say gdbye larh (:]
must thank the rest for adding colours to obs life (:!
wah lazy to blog detailed 5 days lorhh D:
definitely not transferring everything on my journal [paiseh very lazy]
haiya bascially suay things are
-my specs spoiled
-kenna cut by some weirdo plant [awww my leg whole thing. groan] cause i was blind
-back pain on day 4 from the bag [wah the tent is wahbiang heavy]
-knee kenna attacked by the capsizing kayak
-face slapped by some person's pedal of the kayak. o.o
-our stuff kept getting stolen by various watches [starting from the loss of me and ma's bags on day 1!!!]
lucky things:
-had a great time
-store check: NOTHING GONE [*winks*]
-still can walk! :D
-got ppl who nursed my injuries! :D [love you ppl]
-mas selamat nvr came
but hmmph i really liked camp 2 cause [all my stuff were THERE!]
and i think it gives the most campy feel
not that i dun like camp 1 but it feels extremely resort-ish
and camp jelutong is terrible larh [very extreme]
aiyarh. one memorable thing was the fact that day 3 evening was quite emo. :D
shaoting suddenly fell to the ground cause of leg cramp.
scared me to death arh!
then she and mama started crying. aiyah various reasons.
mama was quite obviously emo-ing since the tent pitching D:
then afterwards[much later] when i found out that our map was gone i was really hysterical
i rmb mama going to the beach to find the map with me [ahh emos]
then i couldn't see so fell down holes 2 times.
in the end cried on the way back. dunno why.
perhaps i loved the map. [erm. ew.why.]
perhaps just really affected by the emo ppl
perhaps just tired of losing stuff.
in the end the battuta-tians. took it. wah
elton very zhun leh. sure can find one :D
i was still there 'eh isit kenna washed away'
haha. in all i think the 5 days were not wasted lorhh. :D
but wahseh very sad the weather very terrible D:
I RATHER HAVE SUN CAN! [and yea it c ame on the last day o.o]
still rmb shivering in the tent on day 3.. *sneezes*
lalalal (:
still very happy to have got into this watch lorh (:
will miss watchmates a bit more than obs :D
TEARS NOT WASTED on the dunno wat floating pontoon?
yeaaahh :D
lalala. that ends it off?
heh. ermm.
tmr got training. lala.
must jiayou arhh (:
actually still hoped that prelims weren't postponed.
although it was one day after obs
but that day the sun was really WAH D:
and i really had the pitching mood on friday. heh.
my ma is very 'frustrated' by my feet.
she suan me like everyday D:
then my pa is very neutral.
goes 'you don't finish all the plasters can liao'
my brother only goes 'wah. hahah. [some un-typable sound] neh-ni-neh-ni-poo-poo'
my grandma, as usual, doesn't care. o.o
hope tmr's training okay lorh. :D
hope weather + ground is not too bad. :D
shall go off to do maths again D:
oh yes i can't open lms T-T
i hate this week.
must mug like theory, block test and still must jiayou for training.
ahhh. cannot give up. D:
PIA!!!!!!
byee arh. :D
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