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3:27 PM
Sunday, March 30, 2008
again.
this is the second time this week that i can't make out what i'm feeling.
on thursday i didn't know if i was sad or angry or hopeful or disheartened
on friday i felt more calm and i felt a lot of warmth from wat everyone said.
yest, when i knew of the truth my feelings got 乱 again.
and today, i dunno why, i can't stop thinking about it.
[must be the midnight talk with ameliang T-T]
i tried not to get affected.
but that is really quite hard i admit.
曾经心里拥有那么多希望
曾经真的很天真, 以为什么都ok.
所以事情变成这样
我要怎么办,
我能做什么,
为什么没人告诉我 .
我最讨厌坐一旁看著我在意的人伤心
但却无能为力
感觉好懦弱, 感觉好无奈, 感觉好堕落
i don't like to feel insecure
i don't like to not understand anything.
now i feel so mixedup that 我真的怕了.
我要努力为大家争取
我想开心地走完条崎岖的路
我相信只要我们拼了,
没什么 不可能的 .
is this a challenge?
人说失去过才懂得珍惜
我们却从未处在失去的悬崖边.
i believed that if team 2 had that chance to pitch again
they would do very well.
i am not losing hope, i am keeping faith
'coz 我要勇敢追奔向到终点
痛过的泪水换来是甜美
we're on our final lap
how many times have we ran these laps?
in our trainings, in our minds?
we've managed to come so far.
we have this chance to finish this lap.
i always felt more secure with team 2 by our side.
but maybe it is really time we learn to fly on our own
at least we still have one another. ;D
TEAM ONE 不可以放弃
不可以漏油![erh since 加油 is too mechanical, let's use this phrase to replace it!]
LAST LAP! SPRINT TOGETHER, FINISH THIS TOGETHER!
it is now up to us if it is going to be a fullstop or exclamation mark.
rmb our cheer?
"NYCT 活出自己
一起努力不放弃
不怕下雨不怕muddy
永远永远我爱CT! :DD "
no cheer is created for nothing (:
"过去一个人 偶尔叹息
也曾想过要放弃
如今 不为自己 也要为了你
笑着让梦延续
因为我相信 只要我相信
就会有奇迹 "
让我们一起相信 !
拼了!
oh btw, okay i might be weird
BUT I DON'T WANT FINALS TO BE PUSHED BACK.
THIS WEEK.
i want to feel the intensity of a training filled with passion and direction
i want to see how we will be if we work together and hard within this limit
i want to be able to look back at this week and feel proud of ourselves.
to speak the truth
i wasn't this emo before in my life
i dunno, but i like the feeling of 牵挂 for ct.
like when it rains, ppl go"woo shiok" you go "argh later training how"
like when you feel high, ppl go "I FEEL HIGH!" you go, "i feel like pitching now! :D"
like when you listen to a song and you start relating the lyrics to ct.
just for that, i feel the courage to strive on. :D
i still have my teammates working with me (:
and we still have team 2's support to fall back on.
THIS WEEK WILL BE THE MOST MEMORABLE WEEK OF MY LIFE ;D
kaye byeee.
[need to go do campfire propsal stuff]
chu! :D
[p.s. meliang, 振作 orh.别怕 :D ;tung yi, 可以的! 拼了!; pinky, yes, EVERYTHING WILL BE OKAY! ]
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