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random
10:17 AM
Sunday, August 27, 2006
I told you ii need random stuff here to clear my thoughts. So here i am. after a bit of lying down.(: i din dare to look at the stairs ii took a rest at the sofa instead.(: clever me ehh. the stairs looked blur anyway.
LET'S START
| BLUE |
You give your love and friendship unconditionally. You enjoy long, thoughtful conversations rich in philosophy and spirituality. You are very loyal and intuitive.
(: yayy. I LOVE BLUE. MY FAVOURITE COLOUR(: hoho. recently have been developing the LOVE FOR ORANGY YELLOW too(: yahoo.
find your inner PIE @ stvlive.com
yayy. (: ii love apple pie. (: BUT i dunno if i am classical.(: woohoo... lol. About being popular and sweet hurhur. THEY OVERESTIMATE ME LARH.(: (today too sick, not in the usual ego and zi lian mode. HEY that doesn't sound usual either)
Take the 100 Acre Personality Quiz!
discover what candy you are @ quiz me
hurhur.gosh(: i dinno there were candy necklaces.(L lol. i AM NOT CLINGY ORH(: lol. Just don't like to be alone bah(: ii like the part about having a sweet personality(:yayy.yayy.yayy. (: gosh. am getting dizzy le.): nvm. I STILL NEED MORE RANDOM STUFF.gosh.
| You Are a Chocolate Chip Cookie |
 Traditional and conservative, most people find you comforting. You're friendly and easy to get to know. This makes you very popular - without even trying! |
HAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA(: chocolate chip cookies are niice(: probably the only chocolate thing ii eat.(: ii love making chocolate cookies with my cousin as well(: (: ii like cooking with ppl.(: i realised. hurhur. Actually personality tests do you some good eh(:? GOsh ii am getting abit better(: so I SHALL HAVE MORE(: MORE (: MORE (:
| You Are Vanilla Ice Cream |
 Your personality is anything but "vanilla" You're a risk taker, who's up for anything new. You go well with anyone and fit into any situation. You are most compatible with rocky road ice cream. |
yayy(: vanilla ice cream are niice(: but doesn't mean ii like vanilla ice cream(: Hurhur. I prefer more different flavours(: but ii hardly eat ice cream anyway.lol. and DUN TELL ME IF YOU ARE ROCKY ROAD ICE CREAM. lol. I dun believe in matchmaking like tat. (: lol.
| You Are Chocolate Chip Cookie Dough Ice Cream |
 A classic and an original, no wonder everyone snakes your style! |
I LOVE BEN AND JERRY'S ICE CREAM! all so ex. but very worth it.(: at least gain your fats on sumthing that was niice and worthwhile right?(: yayy. AND CHOCOLATE CHIP AND COOKIE DOUGH ICE CREAM IS WHAT I LOVE TOO(: imagine that Vanilla Ice Cream with Gobs of Chocolate Chip Cookie Dough.. OMG(: AND IT IS RANKED 2nd AMONG ALL BEN AND JERRY's ICE CREAM(: yumm.
okkye.(: ii think ii've had enough for today(: hoho. Really. random stuff just brings my mood all back to me.(: later, or perhaps tmr, then ii might blog about all the stuff this week(:
COUSINS ARE POPING OVER(: chuxi, bring a smile to them(: yayy.
HAve a nice weekend, everybody(:
in a depressed mood
8:45 AM
Never did feel bad like this. Today am using short and non-structured sentences. NO mood to crack lame jokes. Everything has gone haywire. gosh. my life is messy. haiix.
I dunno. I hate the feeling of being said to have done something ii did not do. I always thought people could understand my feelings too because no one wants to be said to have done something they didn't do. Obviously if it is good things then okay for you, good for you larh. But then for something bad i won't ever want such a thing to happen.
BUT IT DID. Well. unexpectedly. and on me. AND BLAMES. AND FAULTS. AND COMPLAINS. gosh will i ever get sick and tired of this thing and just thrash this thing into the bin or something??
AND ESPECIALLY ON A DAY I AM RUNNING A 43degree FEVER? CRAP? gosh. it was supposed to be 41 degrees this morning larh.): I thought it would be okay after today, cause when ii was piaing my home econs FE coursework early in the morning, although i was tired my fever was going down larh. THEN NOW WAT?
AS i am writing this post, i am having a 65% risk of fainting in front of the computer. That is, said so by the doctor. I am on the 65% risk of fainting every 30min due to a serious ping xue(not anything of this matter but recently.. blahblah. TOO STRESSED LARH. but then still(: it is much endurable than this) ya so. it is due to a serious condition of ping xue mixed with my crap 43 degrees. goshh ii am hating this.
well... so back to the thing. I am not going to care. IF you shall just keep thinking this way, GO AHEAD! GO AHEAD! (: I AM HAPPY THAT YOU ARE DOING THIS! (: GO AHEAD UNTIL U SEE MY GRAVE. thanks.
gosh.. EOYs are coming. Then while ii am so very trying hardly to pia my hw and project, i have more to worry. SHEESHH. (: thanks a lot. ii will appreciate it and will remember to put it in my will.(: yayy.
Haven't really got my EOY timetable yet. But then ii think that is enough bah(: . It is happening like around 5 weeks after. which
7 times 5 =35!
hooray(: EOYS are so near.(: ii am so glad ii finally get to prove my ability to flunk exams.(: weee.
haiix. due to my being very unhappy and sick, I MIGHT DO MY RANDOM CRAP AGAIN.(: hooray. ii love random stuff. at least ii know things happen randomly and maybe ii was just unlucky to be caught in the number. HOHO. look how optimistic ii am(: guess ii will post this and go lie down for a while cause seriously ii am really on the verge of puking. THEN I will get the random stuf working(:
and ii didn't take lunch cause ii puked on it. WHO ASKED ME TO SEE ALL THAT BEFORE LUNCH?? maybe even if i had eaten it, i would have puked it also.(: ALL OVER MY LAPTOP. yayy. happiness ehh(: so maybe i should be thankful.
LALALA. wish me luck on the stairs. HOPEFULLY i won't faint on it again and fall 5 steps.(MY NEW RECORD. YAY!)
okkye. BYE! wish me a die die soon(:dun give me the get well crap.(:
2:55 AM
Monday, August 21, 2006
well.. rushing my french test revision and my total defence test revision. dunno why it is called total defence test when we learn, the paper says total defence is only part of total security which is also made of internal security and diplomacy. hoho.
anyway, ermm.. just want to say:
Jiayou Wang Yue for violin! (: you better go today and don't make me write wrong message again :P
GO GO GO! JIAYOU!
nicholas wong is very niice de.(: he'll probably be scared of you instead of the other way round. lol.
okkye. so JIAYOU!
will probably blog abt me and my life on wed.X( too busy with the two tests le.X( SO UNFAIR MY COMMON TEST JUST ENDED SOMEMORE>.<
funX) and slack.hoho.
6:18 AM
Thursday, August 17, 2006
before ii start, ii want to say tat i was being really stupid with that last post cause on Monday i found out that Yue Jie didn't even go for violin on Sun. XP wahha.yuejie zao jiang mah... hoho
ANyway TODAY IS HOLIDAYS!! X)X)X) went to get prensents.X) for teachers' day with Hk, June, Hoonie and Linxi, cause all of us were on HOLIDAY!! X) and XW was supposed to Join us cause she organised this whole shopping thing, hoho, but then ii think she has something on or wasn't feeling very well bahhX) iif u are not feeling well, take care orhhX) must get well soon, tmr still got maths test.X) JIAYOU HOR EVERYONE.wahha.
And yest. was nice.X) ii learnt that I DIDN'T FAIL HISTORY! and for once, I DID PRETTY OKAY! X) better than the previous times.hoho.X) haha.X) so in the end add up this raw score my Combined Humans. is 85.X) wooohooo. which is freakyly 11 marks higher than last time, but that was with the project scores.X) ii really wiish they start giving back our SIAs.X( ii want my SIA! I WANT MY SIA!! X( weepps.
Anyway, me and Hk were the only FREE ONESX) cause Hk and I both didn't have third lang. today!!X) hoho. ii bet hor MY FRENCH CLASS IS POSSIBLY THE ONLY CLASS WHO IS OFF TODAY!! x)yayy. niice mdm cheo.X)
So we were playing.X) the rest were pretty serious.hoho. and linxi even wore her nametag can?XP hoho. but that is uniquely LINXI.X) and so we bought presents.X) and then the third lang. ppl went to third lang. and Hk....
oops. miissed something.XP so before they left and after we bought the presents, we had difficulty trying to decide where to eat.X) Linxi wanted to eat at Mcdonalds X) cause she want to use EZ link card.X) Hk wanted Long John Slivers and HOonie and ii had no comments.June didn't even WANT TO EAT. hoho.she not on diet lah.XP
So well, anyway, they decided in the end to eat from this NIICE store.( not being mean, the store is nice kay?) and then ii decided to be a bit bleahh and went to McDonalds cause ii simply did not want to spend CASH but from EZ link card.X)
Okay.. back to the original content. X) ya. So the third lang. ppl went to third lang.X) and me and Hk went to take 188 home.X) or say, MY HOME.X) and then yya, Hk showed me the BLAH video.hoho.XP haha. and she fooled around with my bro's keyboard while ii went back to wat ii did in the morning, X), WATCHING GOONG VIDEOS! X) hoho. ii am really mad over this show can?X) soooooooooooooooo sweet.hoho. Lele you better better bring the manga tmr or ii'd possibly skin u alive.hoho.lol. anyway, then hk left at near 2, WHILE SHE APPARANTLY WAS SUPPOSED to reach home at 1.30 pm. baddie.baddie.tsktsk...wahha.
And ii dunno why, this morning ii woke up t6.50am.X( ahhhh. ii even though ii would wake up late and set my alarm at like, 8.45am?? hoho. so bleahh. when u have hols suddenly in the middle of the week and only you in the entire family has hols. haiix.X(
okkkyye larhh.X( ii am having MATHS TEST tmr.X( bleahhhh. wish me THE MOST POSSIBLE LUCK.X( ii am possibly going to die anyway.X( there is algebra.X( haiix. and ii still have to go try working out my angle bisector and line bisector.X( that is what you get when u nvr bring ur mathematical set during maths class and therefore start to slack-- not being able to catch upX( and ii was supposed to be doing better and NOT worse in maths X( shheheshh..
okkyye.MUZ go and JIAYOU le.X( wiishh me luck arhh.luck arhh.
AND YUEJIE ARH, muz jiayou this sunday lor.X) dun tell me on monday that you dun have lesson again ii would possibly go bang my head against the wall. sadistic.X(
ermmm. hurrying.
12:00 AM
Monday, August 14, 2006
okkye. am supposed to be clearing up my stuff and getting ready to get myself to violin class..X) but ii die die must say this:
Yue Jie must jiayou for violin kayye?? X)
don't worry lahX) nicholas wong very nice de.(:
okkyye.X) Yuejie all the way!! X) DOn't worry bahh.. you definitely can do it de! At the most skip Grade 1 and Grade 2 like me lor.XP JIAYOU~~~ gives all my moral support.X) got question can ask me hor.(: hoho. although ii explain might not be very clear.(: JIAYOU!
chuchu yong yuan zhi chi ni~~~ same for you 'darling' orh! (: lol. dragged him down.
okkyye.X) really must go le.(: JIAYOU ORHH!
photos X) yayy~~
4:56 AM
Sunday, August 13, 2006
Yayy.. uploading sqd photos.X) wahhha. ii must be looking real ugly loor.X) sry larhh. wasn't feeling very well yest.X) *finding excuses.XP*
1st one: X) our fab. WHOLE SQD PHOTO! X)
wahhha.X) everyone looks pretty muchh NICE except me.X( bleahhXP
2nd One: THE MA MA AND PAPA and their 5 daughters.X)
yayy for my papa and mama and my ZAE ZAE men.X) yo.X)
3rd one: X) X) X) the Honghong and Mc Family Tree.X) smiles.
CUTE FAMILY!!! X) wahha. X) the only normal one seems to be xiaocong.XP ah boy seem very CUTE EHH! X) so abnormal family.. the guys all smile so cute.XP
4th one: Jungy and Pinky's family!! or rather. they and their daughter POOH X)
Poor pooh.X( sorry dear pooh ii got no winnie the pooh soft toy tat day.XP wahhh.but very sweet looking family.X)
5th one: TWINS and their adopted children X)
Minmin looks very cute.X) Seashell wanted the bear bear to take but then HONghong refused to give it to her.X) lovely 2 families.X)
6th one: MAMA and PAPA and their most precious, haven't marry yet daughter.X)
X)X)X) well.. i look terrible.X( but mama and papa so cute.X)
7th one: MAMA and PAPA in their *urggh* romantic position.XP
ahh pa wanted to really kiss.XP he say he wanted to have a pose whereby she and mama de mouth in between got gap X) but then ii go photoshop and write there 'censored' like really really kissing. eeyyer.*goosebumps.*
8th one: 40's HARDWORKING side.XP
wahha.X) Jungy copying my maths ws.X) Xiaocong doing zuowen or something.X)
9th one: BATCH 40 in drills.X)
shuang hor?? XP pooh love to take photos lar..XP aiyo no command nowonder u all so chamXP stand in sedia for so long.XP squad kekanan lurus!XP
wahh. hong give weird expression.XP kathy fall out.eeyer. SAMULA.XP omg lol.
LAST PHOTOX): me and my dear xiaocong.X) yayy.
weee~ my best photo.XP lol. yayy~~
weee. okkyye. tat is abt all. XP let's test my com.'s connection to see how long it takes to upload this whole entry.XP with 11 photos.XP okkyye.bb.have a niice weekend.X)
p.s. ii am starting to love my 4 1/2 boots.X)
wahhha..
12:27 PM
Saturday, August 12, 2006
Today soo funny.XP we were doing sexual edu. for PCCG.XP so wahha. everyone all a bit paiseh at the topic.hehes. And ii was having left tonsil pain so ii keep trying to moisten my throat and Ms Ong though i was snorting at the subject.X( wahha. Didn't know that tonsil pain could bring such side effects. XP
Anyway.. Today was a sad day for me and my 5 1/2 boots. X( poor thing. X( haiix. ii really really din want to part with it, not because it is shining or something but because ii have "unconciously developed a feel for it and feels very sorry to the boots for now leaving it out of my life." okkyye. ii tried to phrase it the best possible.X) yayy. diao.
ANyway, ii don't blame my poor 5 1/2 boots for this but erm, IT DESTORYED MY FEET.X( well, ii tried okkye sqm ii tried.X( ii stuffed my SOCK in the shoe and not tissue or toilet paper.X) but it was worse.X( argghhh. ii kept feeling the pain in act. goshhX(. unable to bear with the pain ii did it-- the only thing left to do- (dramatic sounds come in the background) -- I CHANGED MY 5 1/2 BOOTS TO 4 1/2 !!!
and u know wat?? 4 1/2 is the smallest size.X( bleahh. BUT I FITTED MY FEET INTO IT! even with the white cotton thick socks.X).why didn't I USE 4 1/2 from the start? WAHA>.< and ii didn't know my feet was small.XP ii always thought it was ermm, gigantic.XP bbleahh.
well, okkyye forget about my 5 1/2 boots. oohh sadd. X( which is probably trying desperately to make friends in the cabinet of other boots in the now cold and lonely NP room.X( sorry ii will pray that you will be well darling boots.X(
well.. hiies sweet and lovely SMALL 4 1/2 boots. X) ii am now ur new owner! say hii to my blog and laptopX) *waves boot at the screen* yayy. ii will take care of u and be gentle.X) ii am very sorry but ii have decided not to marry you too.X) dun want to hai si ni.XP
Ooohh. and today got back geog. X) well. same score as the previous two times. XP 18!! X) ii love ms khoo.X) erm. in case u were wondering, it is upon 20.X) okkye. but ii think like the previous two times my history is going to pull down everything again. X( back to square one.BLEAHH
well. leave tat aside.X) let's try something random.X)
Name 3 things in your purse/wallet
-$$ yayy. am not broke yetX)
-neoprints!X) too bad the one with dionne and zae cannot stuff in X( eeeyer.XP
-my favourite pix of me and my bro. X) awwww. but well.XP blushhes
Name 3 things you like to wear
-hmmph. skirts are okkye.X)
-the bracelet chain XXX gave me.X)
-oohh. XP MY FLOPPY sandals.X) matches possibly ALL MY CLOTHES. wee~
Name 3 things you always do when you are stressed up
-arhh.. complain about headache.
-lie on the bed and try to think straight.X) wahh. ii sound logical and coolr right? but ii hardly do that.wahha.
-go AHHHHHHHHHHHHHH and then type random weird MARS language.X) like abjlggljdlkem
Name 3 fav songs right now
-hmmphh.XP GraduationX) chao niice kayye.X)ON OUR CLASS BLOG ALSO LORX)
-chong er fei.X) 37 ma'am sing really niice lor.*nostalgia*
-can't decide ehh.X( ii like so many songs muz chose with special meaning de.X( oohh. kiss goodbye.X) and ii've got something to tell you.X)(ermm. PACKAGED.XP) kiss goodbye is our song to 37 ma'ams X) and i've got something to tell you is the song we did the dance to for teachers' day audition.X)
Name 3 favourite persons in life
-ZAE!! HELLO NO ONE IS BETTER THAN MY ZAE! clear up.X)
-oohh sweet Hk and Wangyue our dear Yuejie.X) the sweet and lovely ppl in my life.X) ( ermm. in package.XP)
-MY SQM~!! weeee~ luurvve yya( ermm also packageXP obvious mahh.X( cannot bias to one sqm de.XP)
Name 3 places you go on a daily basis
-SLEEP.X) yayy sleeping ruleX)
-toilet. hehes. dun need to explain loor.x)
-my roomX) my everyday start there.X) aww dun worry, i never started my day in the toilet.XP
Name 3 things you like to do
-X) sleep and crap(my hobbies.X) lol.
-ermm. X) use the computer and CHAT with sqm and maybe ma'ams.X)
-Play my violinX) although it sounds horridX)
Name 3 person of the opposite sex that you hold hands before
-daddy.X)
-JOhn.
-ermmm.Spits. ermm kindergarten they used to make us hold hands.X)
Name three favourite fruits
-PEACHX) you rock peachyXP
-ermm. LYCHEE x) yayy.
-HONEYDEW! you are better than honeyX)
Name 3 things you are addicted to
-the computer.X) ermm not really tat kua zhang.XP
-SOME TV shows.XP too many to name of.(actually not many lor. only erm like 3 to 4? XP just lazy to name.XP)
-NYNPCC ooh. AND BATCH 40!! X) yayy. lovely.
Name 3 favourite hobbies
-crapping. *commercial style*style my no. 1 choice.X)
-HAVING FUN!
-soccer and basketball with the bibotic cousins and the not so bad cousins.X) yayy.
Name3 career choices
-psychotherapist.X) ii want ii want.X)
-hehes. teacher? X)
-violinist.wahha. not likely bahhXP
Name 3 goals in 2006
-increase my percentage to 75%!! please.X(
-hehes.X) make sqm love me more.X)
-and after today, MUZ treasure the people who care about me more.X)
Name 3 plans for tomorrow
-SLEEP LATEX) sat. mahhX)
-enjoy.X)
-watch TV. wooahh. ii slack ii rule.X)
Name 3 things that scare you
-Nobody like me.X(
-ermm. FAILING ALL SUBJECTS.X(
-spoiling my boots.X) see 4 1/2 boots. X) ii said ii will take care of u de right? X)
Name 3 of your essential needs
-air
-food
-water. SOUNDS a bit to scientific. BLEAHHX)
Name three things you are wearing right now
-ermm. dark blue top.X)
-Nanyang shorts.BLEAHH.
-ermm. the bracelet XXX gave me.X)
Name 3 unforgettable events still in your mind
-hmmpph. my this year's bday.X)
-NEOPRINT WITH ZAEX)
-heeyy. TAKING PHOTO WITH SQM X)
Name 3 things essential in relationship
-love <3
-mutual trust yayy.X)
-faith. ermm.X)
Name 3 things you want to do before you leave this world
-BE SUCCESSFUL IN DIETXP
-erhh. finish learning all my violin stuff.X)
-I WANT TO MAKE PPL around me HAPPY X)
Random questions
lied to the person you love most?
nahh.X)
bluff a person you dont like/love him when you does?
hmmphh. dunno ehh.XP
YES or NO questions
Been trap in lift?
yayy. NO!
Violated the law?
gosh no ( will anyone admit iit anyway?XP)
Been in jail?
wow! yes! as if.
Trapped in a room with only a opposite sex around?
wahha.not trapped.X)
Love someone with your whole heart?
oohh. maybe not yett bahhX)
okkkye. buh bye.X) *wink*
Standing ovation
2:48 AM
Thursday, August 10, 2006
wahhaa. Sorry ii am SO lazy and refuse to blog. X( somedays ii just feel that having a blog is really much of an extra responsibility that you have to pay... well. watever.. Ooh anyway.. did ii ever mention ii just got back my papers on Monday for Bio and Chinese. X( well, ii did claim that ii flunked all my tests right?? well, ii suppose this two turned out a bit better than ii thought. X)
for 1,
My bio mark is higher than the class average!!! yayy
okkiies. X) X) but it is quite a pathetic HIGHER. X( why? well, it is just 0.4 marks above the class average? X( Shheshh. anyway, ii got urm, 37/50? bleahh. X( but at least iit is better than my chem. shheshh iif ii really really really want to take triple science in sec 3 ii better work on my bio and chem. X) yayy. and our class de average is higher than 106 de! X) weee~ ms goh must love our class better orhh.X) and ii think seriously a 36.6 as an average is really impressive! X) but bleah. my 37, is like, pathetically just 1 mark away from an A1!!! X( X(X( shheeeshhh. din make it ii suppose. X( but iii think its okkye bah.X)
and welll.X) ii guess ii din really flunk culture.X) 28/30 sounds niice.X) but ii could have gotten myself a 30 iif ii hadn't read the question wrongly. X( bleahh. and mama got full marks ehh. yayy for mama.X) and well, hehehs. my compre component is not bad too bah.. considering that ii have never in my life achieved a 55/70 in compre yet.. X) but not so for the component whereby we are supposed to shorten the passage's few paragraphs. X( but ii supposed at least a 15/20 iis good enough. X)
and so in final, for chinese ii have atained myself,
An A1!!!!!!!!
and not a bad A1 too! X) 83!! yayyy. X) last time ii just got a pathetic 76 for A1. wahawaha.X)
okkyye, putting the RESULTS question aside, (since my geog. and history results are STILL NOT BACK YET. most possibly on fri. arrrghh. wish me luck.) u should be taking notice of my TITLE!! X) waha. know why ii put that?
because ii stood for more than 5 hours yesterday!! X(
yesterday was CROSS COUNTRY!! X) soo fun. X) weeee but ii went there early yest. to get into Half u and then yeppps, it was so shuang and we were supposed to do the finishing line duty by telling students to get into the right lane.X) BUT THEN THIS teacher in red shirt SNATCHED our job and he stood way way infront of us and directed the students. AND ii think he was being wrong.. cause he blocked students' way!! X( HE stopped the students, blocked their way, then pause, tell them which lane to go to, then let go of them. X( that must have slowed down their timing. X( sad sad sad. but then he was just being niice ii suppose. BUT THAT LEFT US WITH NO JOB! X(
and we saw ma'ams running. wahaha. so shuang arh! X) and for fun run de front part, we cheered people on, then we kept cheering for ma'ams and ii could see they were quite happy X). and ma'ams gave us chocolates for national day. SO SWEET! and 38 ma'ams also gave us sweets for national day the day before! X) wahaha.
anyway.. well, so from 6 plus am, when ii reached turf city, till 12 plus pm, when ii finally sat down on the bus, ii STOOD! so calculate calculate. I STOOD FOR 5 plus hours!! X( and at night we went to see the fireworks and mummy asked me to sit down and then ii realised ii was foolish enough to wear a SKIRT, and freaky ii stood from 7.30pm to 9.30 pm. X( wahaha. another 2 hours.. X( bleahhh.bleahhh. so add add, how much? 7 hours!! XD with my injured knee somemore ehh.X) yayy.
well. the fireworks were impressive. really. XD but of course fireworks ALWAYS look niice.XD but then there is this problem with fireworks. They might look niice, but after it shines and decorates the sky, the sky is polluted.X( bleahh. and fireworks always look similar. bleahh...
WEll, yesterday we had SOME SORT of class gathering. waha.XD mrs wong was complaining about her 6.1 being a bit playful.Well, could sense she was stressed at this period of the year again. haiix. jiayou arh 6.1. X)
Anyway, last friday was the council elections.X) well, iit was pretty alright. we didn't have to wait for quite long cause we went at the end of the recess. X) well.. hehes. at least we chose much of a lot of ppl. ANd ii esp. liked the slogan of Vernice and vivien.XD it was. VnV and know what it means??
VOTE AND VOTE FOR VIVIEN AND VERNICE. -.- sooooo cute .
well okkyye. my cousins are here and ii want to play basketball WITH THEM! XD bb. and wait.
Happy national day holiday! X)esp. the HOLIDAY part.XD
apologise.
9:55 AM
Tuesday, August 01, 2006
well. ii have officially decided. ii should stop scolding FF and might as well stop thinking about her. But my mummy said ii cried iin my sleep yesterday night and ii remembered dreaming of FF. well. watever. bleah.
ii have also decided to apologise to FF if she reads this blog and finds me freaking IDIOTIC. well. iif you read this blog( by some kind of magic or chance), please understand that ii have been very emotional and a bit too harsh in my scolding( maybe that was why it took me 14 times to read the post before ii could stop crying.XD yesh. ii crybaby. cannot meh?), so i am APOLOGISING. please don't complain to ma'am that. You should understand that your doings( maybe u found it right and we found it wrong. maybe our thinkings are opposite.) did some serious effects on us. so please understand. and you can ask me to kneel down and beg you. but watever. STOP DESTORYING OUR SQUAD. we are trying. give us time. ii believe if ur attitude improves we will very much like you. ii hope.
ii also decided to apologise to my mummy. SRY ma. sry ii woke u up because ii cried in my sleep. haix. sry ma. X( ii know u saw that ii cry a lot recently and you care a lot about me, but ma it is okay lah. ii just dun feel like or dun see the need to or dun want to tell you all about my crying over ma'ams, crying over FF de stuff. And today ii cried in Lang. Arts. haix. :( three times. Lucky Jungy was beside me and she understood. lucky. XD and please ii din cry cause ii upset over alchemist test lah. okkies. ii know ii did badly but ii hardly cry over raw grades de lor. Maybe iif on the report book it says like tat than ii might cry bah. waha.
well ii cry because xue ting ma'am took the time and effort to write us a 2 page long (well. 1 page and 4/5?) letter to say that she is sorry if we find her too harsh. and she gave us a very niice speech about how we should stick as a squad and she does not see that in us. Well. hmmph. ii was very touched. Touched that it was test week and she made the effort. And then ii felt guilty. Guilty that ii haven't exactly been a very niice cadet. Guilty for letting her down. hmpph. WEll. and ii clearly know why.. sqm iif uu really know me you should know wat is coming next. ( dun worrry. i got tissue le.XD)
iit iis because ii still haven't got over 37 ma'ams. not yet. passing. but barely half. :( maybe ii take a slower time but well, ii can't help it. (takes one tissue) Jiebin ma'am and Xue Ting ma'am said the same thing, although in different context, that 'ma'ams are just passing clouds in our npcc life.'(takes second tissue) Jiebin ma'am said it to tell us to get on with our npcc life and get over the fact that they were not there anymore. Xue Ting ma'am used it to explain that she to us was a passing cloud and that most importantly, it is our sqm who matters. Although for the second time ii am hearing this, ii can't seem to still fully get the 37 ma'ams out and over. :( (takes third tissue) sry sqm ii might take time, and ii really really appreciate it when u try to comfort me when ii cry and try to understand me, and ur sincerity really really touches me a lot. really a lot. ( takes fourth tissue)
ii can hardly remember the times when we were hardly a squad. All of us dispersed and we were individuals. But times passes. ii can not even remember how we became a squad like this. From strangers to mates ii even spent more time with than classmates. ii really really enjoy the times we spent together. And the times when we help each other, no matter in wat aspect, in npcc wise,in normal school wise and iin emotional wise. (takes fifth tissue) ii don't know and ii don't care. iif one day after ii get out of npcc after my fourth year iin nanyang, and should ii fall in front of an obstacle, ii would always have this memory of us together to fall back on. (takes sixth tissue)
Maybe ii could have been wrong a lot of times , like how minmin and jungy always patiently tell me about my horsekicking( should ii have) and trying to correct me. And how when ii do anything wrongly you all always bothers to tell me what is wrong. ANd when ii feel desperate and depressed u all always makes the most effort to cheer me up. (takes seventh tissue) ii dunno and dun care what might come for our squad next year or the years to come, but ii will know and always remember that we are a squad and that we will always be a squad and that no matter what conflict that might happen, we will remain as a squad. WE will have the 40 blood flowing in us. We will take care of each other. And things may change. But this spirit will never change. ( takes eighth tissue)
Well. ii think ii can't take it le bah. better better go clear up my face before mama comes home and then another interrogation happens. :(
ANd btw. ii flunked my french and today's chinese. at least for chinese ii dunno, but ii reckon. For french, well it is that we got back our papers bleah. AND II FLUNKED IT. and ii also flunked my Lang. Arts alchemist test. bleah. X( poor academic life? u might say tat.
if. u really curious. ii flunked french with 16.5/2o. ii flunked lang. arts with 17/25? pathetic? yes ii agree. and chinese haven't get back yet lah. today just do mah. but well ii always know when ii flunked something.XD
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